A young man had been to a Wednesday night bible study. The Pastor had shared about listening to God and obeying the Lord’s voice.
The young man could not help but wonder “Does God still speak to his people?”

After service, he went out with some friends for coffee and pie and they discussed the message. Several different ones talked about how God had led them in different ways.

It was about ten o’clock when the young man started driving home. Sitting in his car, he just began to pray “God, if you still speak to people, speak to me. I will listen. I will do my best to obey.”

As he drove down the main street of his town, he has the strangest thought to stop and buy a gallon of milk. He shook his head and said out loud “God is that you?” He did not get a reply and started on toward home. But again, the thought: buy a gallon of milk. The young man thought about Samuel and how he did not recognize the voice of God and how little Samuel ran to Eli.

“Okay God, in case that is you, I will buy the milk”
It did not seem like too hard a test of obedience. He could always use the milk. He stopped and purchased the gallon of milk and started off toward home.

As he passed Seventh Street, he again felt the urge “Turn down that street.” This is crazy he thought and drove on past the intersection. Again, he felt that he should turn down Seventh Street. At the next intersection, he turned back and down Seventh.

Half jokingly, he said out loud “Okay God, I will.” He drove several blocks when suddenly he felt like he should stop. He pulled over to the curb and looked around. He was in a semi-commercial area of town. It was not the best but it was not the worst of neighborhoods either.
The businesses were closed and most of the houses looked dark like the people were already in bed.

Again he sensed something, “Go and give the milk to the people in the house across the street.” The young man looked at the house. It was dark and it looked like the people are either gone or they were already asleep. He started to open the door and then sat back in the car seat.

“Lord, this is insane. Those people are asleep and if I wake them up, they are going to be mad and I will look stupid.” Again, he felt like he should go and give the milk.

Finally, he opened the door. “Okay God, if this is you, I will go to the door and I will give them the milk. If you want me to look like a crazy person, okay. I guess that will count for some thing, but if they don’t answer right away, I am out of here.”

He walked across the street and rang the bell. He could hear some noise inside. A man’s voice yelled out “Who is it? What do you want?” Then the door opened before the young man could get away. The man was standing there in his jeans and T-shirt. He looked like he just got out of bed. He had a strange look on his face and he did not seem too happy to have some stranger standing on his doorstep. “What is it?”

The young man thrust out the gallon of milk. “Here, I brought this to you.” The man took the milk and rushed down a hallway. Then from down the hall came a woman carrying the milk toward the kitchen.

The man was following her holding a baby. The baby was crying. The man had tears steaming down his face. The man began speaking and half crying “we were just praying. We had some big bills this month and we ran out of money. We did not have any milk for our baby. I was just praying and asking God to show me how to get some milk.” His wife in the kitchen yelled out “I ask him to send an angel with some. Are you an angel?”

The young man reached into his wallet and pulled out all the money he had on him and put in the man’s hand. He turned and walked back toward his car and the tears were streaming down his face. He knows that God still answers prayers!

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What is this strange feeling that I have not felt before.

My heart is beating with feelings unexplored.

When I first saw you standing there, you were filled with glory.

With such a strong commanding feature you seem to shine over everything.

When you raised your voice it echoed all around

You sang up all your joys and the love you have not found.

Hearing your heart’s desire, my ship was attracted to your shore.

How will I even know of what I do not know?

Youre a quandary

I hope you could learn to love someone like me.

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Hahay… I work hard everyday. I get up out of bed and put on my clothes ’cause I’ve got bills to pay.It is not easy but I don’t need any help for I got a strong will to survive and I’ve got a deeper love inside of me. I got pride and it’s the power that gives me the strength to survive
I’ve got love in my heart and it gives me the strength to make it through the day. I have respect for myself and that’s why I’m not looking for handouts, welfare, don’t eat, stealing, dealing, begging and those are not my feeling. I have a deeper love and I am not going to do any back stabbing and greedy grabbing. I want to thank you Lord Jesus for helping me see that there’s a power deep inside of me that gives me the strength to carry on. I don’t need to rely on people’s empty promises. I am strong as steel and I thank the Lord for people who to me are real. Millie Grazie!

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Once I was a prisoner in a palace filled with all its glory.

Many envied my life while I was living inside the golden abode.

They did not know the agony that I carried with me.

The agony that no one but the Almighty Father understands.

In that palace were promises broken.

Jealousy sprouted like weeds all of a sudden.

Before I knew it, I became the cause of the nightmare.

Innocent as the skies above I was accused.

I became lost inside myself with the world surrounding me

Years and years wondering through the misery

Once I was so all alone, unsteady and cold.

All were destroyed when you rained your love down upon me.

You washed away my uncertainty.

You have unclouded my eyes with your your sweet serenity.

Why did it take you 26 years to free me?

Why is it that I cannot find a place in my heart to forgive the people who have wounded me?

All the good done was obliterated by one mistake.

I am finally at peace!

Leave me alone!

I will never return to your palace.

I do not want to see you anymore.

Mere thoughts of you angers me.

I am happy to foget you.

I am finally free

Free to laugh with joy.

Free to soar with wings wide open.

Free to shine like the midnight sun.

Free to give my care to the unfortunate.

Free to love my real family and those deserving.

Free enough to fly to forget the nightmares.

I have made up my mind.

Dont you dare confuse my mind with your facts.

Goodbye mighty Horde!

Thank you for releasing from bondage my beloved pain.

It is through you that I am free!

I am finally at Peace!

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The Couple of weeks in my life have been very turbulent lately that the situations were enough to lose my sanity. All started while I was in Europe , series of misfortunes happened to the extent I had the urge to jump off in one of the hotels that I was staying. After being called “tanga” and accused of stealing, these were few of the factors that almost lost me my self esteem and dignity. There came a time in the tour that I became a prisoner of misery and things did not make any sense. I could not think straight. It has always been a way that when a person is engulfed with great emotions, his sense of reason and thinking are corrupted. I was very thankful that she never abandoned me when I was at the top of my misery. But who is this woman that I am referring to? There is no other than the greatest woman in the world: The Blessed Mother Mary. Ever since I feel her presence in my life, I gave myself to her fully.

When I left home last June 15 due to the inevitable internal faction in the family and living alone made me very vulnerable to negative opportunities. Solitary living with a wounded soul can be very deadly but it was in that exact moment that I found my real friends. I was surprised receiving calls from friends living in Alaska , Dubai , New Zealand , Ireland , and few here in Iligan. I even get numerous invitations for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Now that is what I do not get to have everyday. I believe that this is Mother Mary’s way of telling me that she is with me in my times of sorrow.

During the 9 day fiesta activities of the barangay, things did not go as we planned it due to factors that influenced it and as chairman on the fiesta committee, it brought pressure. The worse was on the 8th day of the fiesta activity of were I was juggling many balls in my hands. For a moment I thought I was having a sensory overload that night for I have to simultaneously monitor the park activities and assist the church. Out of my sheer desperation to get things done, I closed my eyes and said “Holy Mother Help me” and the moment  I opened my eyes, I was thinking straight and things suddenly turned out right and I was able to accomplish the my responsibilities together.

During the feast mass of Our Mother of Perpetual Help at the Redemptorist Church , I was filled with great joy just by looking at Mama Mary’s icon. I am very fortunate that the Lord Jesus shared His mother to humankind.

I am forever yours Holy Mother!

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Series of tests were given to me and I am proud to say that I have surpassed all of it without wounding myself. Despite the pain that "family" inflicted on me, I was able to stand up tall. It is true that much kneeling does work wonders. Some people judge me as evil and a person not contented with life. True, for if I dont like the person, I dont pretend, I show it. Life is what we make it ayt?

I am happy with my life right now and it made me closer to people whom I longed to be closed with. Living alone rocks! I was able to feel the affection of my real parents and siblings except one whom I can never forgive.

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I remember the way we were
It seemed a lifetime ago
We were stars on our own world
What a movie we made
There were days in the sun
That have stayed forever young
Nights when in passion was invincible
We thought love would never die
There were moments in that lifetime
That my heart still replays
There were minutes, there were hours, there were days
There are moments I still love you that same way
When I remember the way we were
I remember goodbye
I watched our love go out of sight
Love was over, time to close the book
Still I go back for one last look

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I am all through with loving you and wasted my precious time on you.

I am gonna walk away, walk out, and kiss this love goodbye.

There are no words that is going to change my mind

I dont deserve all the hurt and I wont put up with the pain for Ive been too many lies and too many games.

What did I ever see in you?

How could I be so blind a fool.

I am gonna leave and take my love and gonna save it for somebody who really loves me.

You dont deserve me around and now Im gonna go.

Given up all the pain and packed up all my pride.

Ive got one word to say and that word is goodbye.

If you just realized that good love dont come for free then I wouldnt be.

Adios!

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Will you come back to me?

I’ve thought about it so many times

Follow your destiny, I understand if you have to leave

Tell me Hun why have we separated again?

Was it me Hun?

Have I controlled the fate of us again?

I tried to rationalize it but I was scared that you would never be there for me and you tried hard to sympathize when you asked me when will i believe in you.

As each day pass without you in my life anymore, the pain tends to be sharper and its piercing deep into my heart.

Will you come back to me?

I miss your love

Another day has come to past and Im still hoping that you will return to me.

Regressa mi?

Am I too late Hun?

Has heaven already closed the gate?

I would walk a million miles to be with you and have your eyes looking right back at me

Im sorry…..

I need you back…..

I need you here to guide me….

Please come back….

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When you love someone

You’ll do anything

When you love someone

You’ll do all the crazy things you cannot explain

When you love someone

You’ll shoot the moon and put out the sun

When you love someone

You’ll deny the truth and believe a lie

When you love someone

You’ll feel it deep inside and nothing else can ever change your mind

When you love someone

You’ll sacrifice

When you love someone

You’d give it everything you got and you won’t think twice

When you love someone
You’d risk it all no matter what may come

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